One of those Days...

Sooooo – Here I am

Feeling so glum…

Don’t know what’s wrong

Don’t know what’s going on….

Just want to cry and shout and

throw things About….

Don’t know what to do…

It’s Tuesday morning and this is really how I feel – I don’t know why, but I am just miserable for absolutely no good reason…Mike got up early this morning and helped me prepare breakfast and lunches and even fed most of the animals…and although I said thank you – I know it was ungracious and I am sure he heard that I was talking through clenched teeth – How unfair is that??????

Kayla-Fern came through saying she had a splinter and asked very nicely if I had a container to soak her little foot in, and she got blasted for her efforts…so badly that she forgot all about her sore foot……

Bradley wants to start going to gym…He is at that age where it is important I guess…and he asked if we could try and go on a Tuesday/Thursday and Friday evening…I just don’t know how we will find the time, and I told him that this morning in nontoogentle a way (meaning I raised my voice beyond normal, rational measures)…

So all in all I feel very guilty…(I mean lets be honest the only unfair thing that I did not do this morning was kick the dog - although I did not give any of the animals a nice cheery morning greeting) - I did apologise to Kayla-Fern  – but the apology should not have been necessary, cos it should just never have happened – Oh dear, why do I feel so hateful….

I think I am going to try and stop worrying about it for now – my motto for the day is just to get through it without being too snappy and ugly to everyone around me and tonight once all the normal stuff is done…I will have a nice long soak in a nice hot bath and then try and have a better start tomorrow….

I was hoping that kind of having a plan of action for this horrible day would help me feel better – but it hasn’t, I don’t…so perhaps I will hum whilst I try to get through the day…

Well, anyway, until Thursday ---- Lots of love